"Mm," his smile shifts to amusement as Vax appears distracted for a moment, fingers still gently brushing against the edge of his ear. It's still only a fond, affectionate touch, occasionally dipping down to explore the hinge of his jaw, or hollow of his cheek.
"It is in some ways, isn't it? The things that may have been following us in Exandria that can no longer reach here. It's nice to have a bit of respite. And I feel happy, to have had the chance to meet you. It seems unlikely our paths would have crossed otherwise."
seeing essek smile had been such a beautiful sight that vax can't get it out of his mind. essek's hands on him are relaxing, soft, comforting, all the things he's needed since his arrival to the island. things have been easier than expected for him to swallow, and essek is one of those things.
so vax'ildan surges forward, crossing the space to catch essek in a soft but sudden kiss. he's tired of not kissing him, of letting him be so close without being close enough. he's upset about something, vax doesn't need to know what, but he does want to show him he doesn’t need to talk. he doesn’t need to open himself any more than he has to. vax is here, he’ll listen.
The pull between them feels magnetic, drawn inexplicably but yet so naturally toward one another. The kiss catches him a little off guard, but the tension that rises in surprise falls away immediately as Essek sinks into the kiss. Eyes closing, sighing softly in something like relief. His shoulders drop slightly, muscles unwinding.
...but then it coils again. The hand against Vax's cheek slips back, curling in dark hair at the nape of his neck to press him closer. The hand against his arm tightens and presses fingertips against warm skin. Pale brows knit together as he pushes into the kiss a little more, almost desperately. It's not edged or hard, but a subtle shift in intensity, clinging to the gentleness that's offered without question. Sometimes Essek still doesn't quite know what to do with it, suspicious still of intent when it comes from anyone but a handful of people. But he's learning.
vax'ildan recognizes the shift, because not too long ago, it was him that clung to whatever kindnesses he could find. it was vax that latched on to keyleth, his shining star in the dark. she showed him affection and forced his hand when he never wanted to play it, a fact that he resented at the time. he learned to appreciate it, to love it.
and now he's going to do the same thing for someone who might not want it.
vax keeps his pace steady, remembering what it felt like to need a rock. he returns essek's kisses, but with less intensity, providing him a hold to grip, a lip to lift himself up by. half elven hands hold his cheek, building a bridge to suspend for his friend.
take what you need, he doesn't say. i'm here for you.
It's relatively short-lived. The warm steadiness does much to quell the burst of immediate need, the search for an anchor point. It's hard to know what he wants lately, what feels right and what may not be. Even when he thinks his own intentions aren't wrong, it's sometimes still hard to know for sure. Vax feels right, but Essek knows he can't hold the truth from him for long. At the very least, he might hear it from one of the Nein, even if incidentally.
But for now, at least, he could find some comfort in a neutral but still familiar presence.
He breaks away with a soft sigh, leans forehead to cheek. Joining him on the couch seems more and more appealing, but there simply isn't enough room to be comfortable.
Essek huffs softly, amused at his own thoughts. "We must get you a room of your own."
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"It is in some ways, isn't it? The things that may have been following us in Exandria that can no longer reach here. It's nice to have a bit of respite. And I feel happy, to have had the chance to meet you. It seems unlikely our paths would have crossed otherwise."
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so vax'ildan surges forward, crossing the space to catch essek in a soft but sudden kiss. he's tired of not kissing him, of letting him be so close without being close enough. he's upset about something, vax doesn't need to know what, but he does want to show him he doesn’t need to talk. he doesn’t need to open himself any more than he has to. vax is here, he’ll listen.
he wants to kiss him.
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...but then it coils again. The hand against Vax's cheek slips back, curling in dark hair at the nape of his neck to press him closer. The hand against his arm tightens and presses fingertips against warm skin. Pale brows knit together as he pushes into the kiss a little more, almost desperately. It's not edged or hard, but a subtle shift in intensity, clinging to the gentleness that's offered without question. Sometimes Essek still doesn't quite know what to do with it, suspicious still of intent when it comes from anyone but a handful of people. But he's learning.
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and now he's going to do the same thing for someone who might not want it.
vax keeps his pace steady, remembering what it felt like to need a rock. he returns essek's kisses, but with less intensity, providing him a hold to grip, a lip to lift himself up by. half elven hands hold his cheek, building a bridge to suspend for his friend.
take what you need, he doesn't say. i'm here for you.
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But for now, at least, he could find some comfort in a neutral but still familiar presence.
He breaks away with a soft sigh, leans forehead to cheek. Joining him on the couch seems more and more appealing, but there simply isn't enough room to be comfortable.
Essek huffs softly, amused at his own thoughts. "We must get you a room of your own."